this was a week

Hello everyone! Gosh, it's been a long time since I wrote something — well, that's not completely true since I did write another...

Hello everyone! Gosh, it's been a long time since I wrote somethingwell, that's not completely true since I did write another poem (or maybe songtekst?) and lots of school-related writing. However, the blog's been quite empty lately and I thought that had about to change. So, let's dive right into it! Oh and in English by the way, because that feels better right now :)

As the title has already suggested, my week has been quite... interesting. It might be great to give you a quick update on my life, since it has changed quite a lot since I started studying first year's Graphic Design at art school. When I look at wat my life consists of nowadays, I can easily say I am a very happy girl. I study something I thoroughly enjoy, even though I sometimes have to remind myself that I am really in my dream right now. Sometimes, because I am practically full time at school and I have lots of homework, I cannot see the bright side, but luckily those thought only arise when I'm very tired or stressed. But at this moment, I feel like I am taking very good care of myself. I sleep enough, I eat enough, I am happy with how I look and feel, I am enjoying lots of podcasts, books and movies because of the three hours I spend daily in the train and bus. The other graphic design students are very kind and open and because this study is fully taught in English, I meet lots of people from other cultures (to name a few: Taiwan, South Korea, Germany, Chili...). There are little people I do not like in my class and because art is such a personal subject, you feel like you know each other quite well. You are there when classmates are struggling, you are there when classmates are developing, when creating amazing work. I am very proud of being part of such a nice group. Only now I write this down I actually start thinking about how lucky I am to be part of that vibe. I am a very sensitive person and when I am starting afresh in a new environment with people I don't now, places that are new to me and subjects I've never heard of, I tend to laugh my own opinions and what matters to me away and "color myself in" based on the others. But because all of these people are so kind and honest, I don't have to do that, because they already resemble so much of my personal values.

That brings me to another great thing that this year has brought me: structure, productivity and happiness (even though I already was quite happy, don't be mistaken!). Becauseespecially in comparison to last year's gap yearmy everyday life has been quite busy, I really value productivity and I'm really learning a lot more than I did in high school. Everyday is filled with learning (and making) things I really enjoy, and I love that feeling of getting really into something, deepening your knowledge and skills to create something you didn't knew you could do. Just to name a few of the many, many projects I've completed since september:

I've tracked all movement and gender in one bus ride (and made a gif out of that information) for spatial design;

I've made a typeface only using rubber bands;

I've made a dance based on the motion and lifespan of a falling leaf in autumn;

I've 3D-printed an actual branch I found in the woods to tackle the question "How close can we as human beings, actually come to designing our surroundings? Can we play our own God? Does the boundary between artificial and natural even exist?" (unfortunately I didn't take a photo);

I generated my own posters with programming;

I've worked on a poster for Computer Skills (the class in which we learn to master Photoshop, Illustrator etcetera) about yourself, using a photo of yourself, some text about yourself, and your initials filled with a pattern we had to create in Illustrator;

I made a set of rings to illustrate the concept of modern-day marriage (more and more people are getting divorced nowadays, so what does a wedding actually mean?) I observed that the expensive, long-lasting design of a wedding ring, made of gold or silver is actually not really fitting this current trend. So I designed disposable wedding rings, made of scotch tape, yarn, cardboard, plastic breadclips and more.

And that's just the tip of the iceberg. Creating all of these super nice concepts and then also actually executing those ideasthinking about and experimenting with the best way to let your concept flourishis something I enjoy so much. The struggle during the process is hard, but when things finally start to work out, the satisfaction and pride that comes with it is amazing and definitely worth the time and effort.

So now that my productivity has increased tenfold (probably even more) and now that I am really feeling in the right placemy own placemy life and especially my mood has been very good. Now I don't have to spend energy on processing all new impressions and experiences that come with doing a new study, being in a new city, traveling every day, I get to think about other stuffI get to spend energy on consuming art rather than producing it. Last week for example I went to the second hand store and came across this very nice book that was on my TBR-list for quite some time now.

I'm talking about Gretchen Rubin's The Happiness Project, a non-fiction book about enjoying the little ordinary things in life and taking your own values and beliefs into account in your daily life. Behave the way you want to feel, and you will achieve that feeling. Do good, feel good and feel good, do good. That kind of stuff. And even though I honestly thought it could have been just a cheesy self-help book that wasn't really for me, it turned out to be one of the nicest books I have read in quite some time. First of all, the size and feel of this little book is great: it is crappy enough to write in, the pages are thin enough to fold the corners of the pages I made notes on, and it fits in my pocket when traveling (okay I have big pockets but STILL!! not every book fits in --- this one was the first that actually did haha and I've loved it ever since). And besides, it's a very optimistic, easy-to-read yet deep little gem that touched the important stuff.

So, to finally talk about my actual week (because that was what I had planned for this article haha): this week was one of highs and lows. Last weekend was a terrible weekend in which I did nothing at all, even though I had planned so much. I had the Friday off, since there were no workshops like we usually have, and I wanted to be productive. I woke early, but ended up doing nothing, which is the worst way of doing nothingthen you actually know what you could have done in that time. Then that same night my parents and brother were all gone, so I ate by myself and watched a movie. After the movie I had to cry for some time, for no particular reason. Maybe it was because the days were a bit too long, or something else: I don't know. And I also wrote the poem I mentioned earlier, No city is yours, because I felt quite lonely and stuck between the two cities I am part of now. Maybe the very fact that everyone was gone and the entire house was empty, made me finally shed the tears that were stuck in my head for a few days because of the tiredness. It just felt shit.
Then the day after I felt the same, but I did have a good talk with my mom about a project I was really stuck in. Then after that, I had a walk with her and we talked about nothing. The next day was just as unproductive as the others, which made me feel very unprepared and pessimistic because I really like being prepared and starting the week "fresh". And then the crying was something I really hated, because it felt a bit like the times of long ago when crying wasn't as rare as it actually should be for me.

Strangely enough, Monday after didn't turn out as bad as I thought it would be. And the day after Monday I actually felt very happy: genuinely happy. I had a very positive outlook on the day, even though I was not prepared well, I noticed that, because I was so happy and optimistic, I was also able to spread my happiness among my friend, who also had a rough weekend because she had worked so much (too much) on school. The two days after that I stayed in the same, very happy and grateful mood. Life turned out not to be so bad after all. I read The Happiness Project in the train, I talked with friends about great podcasts, nice books, I got great feedback from a teacher whose opinion I value a lot.
Now I am writing this, on Friday, this mood is still there, yet a little less extreme as before. Which is still fine, because I made an apple crumble today, I watched the very touching musical Dear Evan Hansen and I am finally writing another blog post, which also makes me very happy, because I've been wanting to do this a lot time, but school prevented me from having the time (and an empty mind) to sit down and eventually writing it.

I hope I will write something soon after this one, but we'll see how it goes! For now, thanks for reading this crazy ramble and I'll see you next time 

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  1. Hey thanks for visiting The Kaleidoscope. You have some serious talent- literally in every art form! I really love the poster you designed on Photoshop- the pattern on it is incredible!

    Olivia xxx

    1. Hey Olivia, thank you so much for commenting! That makes me smile :) And no problem, of course! X